My Five Year Old

Dear Ben, My sweet boy, I cannot believe that you are already five years old. How quickly time seems to fly by when you're a parent. I remember the first moment I knew there was going to be a you. I gave your Dad on the same day little, baby, blue, bear slippers to let him know we were going to have a child and he just grinned from ear to ear. For some reason I always knew you were going to be a boy. However your Dad was the first one to confirm that during our 19 week ultrasound visit and the tech laughed and said he was right. When you came into this world, you were howling and were so mad that you peed on the nurses three times to let them know your feelings on the whole process. When you were finally handed to me I learned what love at first sight truly meant. I was head over heels for you. You were a true miracle from God. You have taught me so much in your little life. I learned how to be a parent (still learning) and how to be a better person. I learned more patience, how to laugh at the little things more often and discovered true joy through your life experiences. Being a parent is one of the hardest things to do. I'm not perfect. When you're a parent (God willing when you're found your soulmate) you won't be either. But even in the toughest of days when everything seems to stink, you melt all of that away with your sweet smiles. I love the person you have become. You are my little firecracker and then some. Your energy is unmeasureable and I wish you could share that with me sometimes. I love that you're enthusastic and a go getter. I wouldn't change you for the world. Your sweetness is just amazing and you still surprise me with the things you come up with at such a young age. I never knew a little boy to care so much about his family in the terms of thinking of things without being asked. I love that you share snacks and toys with your sister. You kiss her and when she's away you tell me how much you miss her. She looks up to you so much. You have such a great relationship with your Dad. He always lets you try things that I would squirm about letting you do, but thats why kids need a Dad. Mom do meddle a little too much sometimes. Your Dad adores you and is so proud of your accomplishments. He may be hard on you at times, but its only for you to learn how to be a man and how to accept your responsibilities. Your Dad also knows your Mom is a big softy so someone needs to lay down the law. I love us. I love that you do little things of thoughtfulness for your Mom like pick a flower when you see one and bring blankets to me since I am always cold. I love the snuggles and the kisses that never seem to end when you're leaving me. I know those days are few, but I love them and I cherish those moments. You are my beautiful, handsome, smart, kind, thoughtful son. I am so blessed to be your Mom. I love you so very much. No matter where you are in life or what you do, know how much I love you and always know that you can come home to me. My arms are wide open and always ready for a hug. I adore you my sweet Ben. Happy Birthday! Love, Mommy